It's Expected

I don't expect her to pay her child support. Three kids and all she is ordered to pay is $104 a month, and she still doesn't. She hasn't SEEN the kids since the day I drove to Albemarle to pick them up after her "boyfriend" assaulted my son, who was only 12 at the time. She did nothing to stop that assault, and stayed with that guy until he left her in Missouri so he could go back to SC and serve his prison time. She goes after a different guy on a weekly, sometimes daily, basis. She might text once a month to ask how the kids are, but hasn't sent a Christmas or birthday present in a year, and never sent anything of value when she used to. Her sisters show more concern for the kids than she does. She uses this site to schedule her dates and booty calls, proclaiming every time that this one is "The One", and then lamenting the "liers" (her spelling) after it all falls apart. I get to hear about these misadventures from time to time, once getting a frantic series of texts asking for money so she could get back home after she went to Oklahoma City to meet a guy that wasn't what he claimed to be (how she described it) and he saw that she wasn't what she said she was (which is how that usually works).

I'm not surprised at any of that. I can't bring myself to feel pity or sadness at her circumstance. I've never been angry or hurt or sad that we split up. It was 13 years of bad decisions and stubborn pride that kept us together, until the straw that broke it landed on my back, and I had to walk away. I'm not at all surprised to see her making the same bad choices, telling the same lies, and spreading her legs for anyone that shows her the least attention. She once told me, right after we split and she'd call trying to remain "friends", that I expected her to live at a "higher level" and that now she was living at a "lower level" where she was more comfortable being at. So, when I see or hear about the next guy that screwed her and then screwed her over, when she hooks up and breaks up in a matter of hours, when she makes promises to the kids and never follows through, I'm not surprised. Because she's living at that "lower level" and she likes being there. And now, it's all I expect of her.